Busy

Hey guys!
I've been busy with school, work, and SAT. I'm stressing out a bit right now because my final projects are coming up. But thankfully I'm not Rosa right now because she's got a lot on her plate. Imagine what college is gonna be like (worse for everyone. Fuck).
 Well the holidays are coming up and the store is getting crazy with it. Thanksgiving just happened and surprisingly we didn't have a lot of people on Black Friday, but people ordered trays for thanksgiving. >.> Which is stupid if you ask me. I'm going to ask for three days off for the holidays and I don't care if they say no. I'm going to get at least two. They can't stop me, because I'm gonna be out of town. OH GOD LET ME TELL YOU OUR OWNER IS VERY OCD..Yeesh. We apparently aren't allowed to ever have the cups that we sell and we aren't allowed to have the sauces either. Well too bad bud, I'm helping your store. And I will eat your sauces if I wanna!
   Well I need to go to sleep. I'm tired and I have a lot to do tomorrow.
     Good night y'all,
  -Alex

(Side note: I found the best dress in existence besides my Hobbit dress!)

Would die for this dress. So awesome!!!

Got a Job!

Woohoo! I got a job at Chick-fil-A! I'm so happy! It's part time and the only real bad part about the job is my feet don't like it. (I stood up for five hours..) The people who work there are nice there a three female managers if I'm correct and one general manager and he's a guy. Yesterday around closing time a girl that worked at the drive through part had everyone bite and sort of eat a lemon without making a face. That was pretty funny, they all joked around with eachother and more so when customers were gone. One of the managers (let's call her Foxy brown because she called herself that when she was ordering something for herself) was very nice and funny, she tried staying serious but was more relaxed when we were closing. It was a good funny thing, we were slightly horse playing but got all our work done and made sure to attend to the customers. The place is always kept very clean and everyone has to be polite. I like it there. I'll update y'all later about it more soon. ^.^

I'm back, Baby! Miss me?

HEY GUYS!
I'm back in black! (I'm sorry..had to make the reference) yes so I'm back. And summer was okay! I hung out with my friend (calling him Perv I have no idea if I have a name for him...oh well!) well I hung out with perv a lot because I was at summer school making up for my mistakes in sophmore year. Now I'm free and this is my senior year!
Bad news for this month: no beach house. It was going to happen but my mom's class is for eight weeks and.. It just turned out bad. But it's okay! I'll hang out with my daddy for my birthday. I don't know what we're going to do, maybe go to Six Flags. Train left and now I'm without my Lake Senior Buddy.
Good news: school isn't too bad and AQUATIC SCIENCE AND I GET TO GRADUATE AND HAVE FUN WITH MY FRIENDS BECAUSE THIS IS MY LAST YEAR.

I've had a busy couple of months, studying for my SAT and ACT, trying to get a job (it's hard when you're not eighteen..watch I'll get a job as soon as I am.), looking for scholarships, trying to get my license. I need to also sign up for stuff and then go finish my general classes at the college I was going to. Responsibilities are piling up..but I'm trying to keep my classes (though easy) as my top priority. I want to graduate well and feel proud of myself. Life is getting to get serious and feel more real. I feel sad that I'm kinda alone at this school. I have Rosa and everyone to still talk to..but I wish I could see them in person all the time. Do fun stuff at school together, have big laughs and make weird jokes I feel pretty lonely at this school...but it'll be okay. I still have my friends and even if I can't see them all the time, I still know they will always be there for me. And make me laugh during assemblies even when I have multiple chairs between me and I'm sitting alone.

People and Why I Can't Stand Them. So I Sit Down.

Sitting in my English class I hear the bell ring and a minute later two boys from my class walk in. Loud and irritating as always. They go to sit down and my English teacher (an old bitty in her mid to late sixties who is a bit loud and can be annoying at times. But I put up with her, she is still a kind person.) tells them to get a late pass. They bitch about it and try sitting down anyway giving her crap and being the cowards they are mumble curses at her. But she prevails and they go get passes. They come back angrily and sit in their seats. One of them is sitting in the wrong spot and it forced to sit in the correct spot. He curses her along the way and blows it way out of proportion. I sit there trying not to blow up at them and mind my own business when the one boy mumbles to the boy in front of me that they should 'jump' the old crone.
Jump our English teacher, they would attack a poor defenseless old lady.
I hate humanity.
I really do.
Who raised their child to have no respect for our elders is beyond me. I mean these kids are low little cretins who don't deserve to be anything but the scum at the bottom of a pond. They would hurt someone because she told them to go get a late pass and sit in the correct seat. They could easily kill her if they did that. And they wouldn't even care. Even considering it is horrible, this is why I hate my school and that class. Because I'm surrounded by mentally deficient, whooping, testosterone filled apes! (thankfully there are some kids in there who are intelligent and respectful children). Did the others not have the fear of god put into them? Were they not punished correctly. Do they not know right or wrong? I figure they know as much but they don't care. And that is what makes people inhuman, when they know what is wrong but will do it anyway. That's what makes them lower than anything. Animals themselves know right and wrong and they do what they must to survive. But humans who know right and wrong and do something horrible because they can, are monsters. But there is nothing I can do...All I can do is either tell someone or wait until something does happen and tell. Nothing has happened yet so I don't think I need to let any authorities know of this situation.
God, I wish things weren't like this.

Thanks for reading my rant,
Alex

Here's a cute drawing of the characters from Jurassic Park as dinosaurs as an apology for this blog post.

There and Back Again

Yeah I'm sorry, I've been working on keeping up my grades, doing robotics, dealing with love problems, stress, and photojournalism.
I was dating Picard from the time the second part of The Hobbit movie came out to sometime in January. I broke up with him because he started to ignore me and I hate being ignored, I couldn't deal with the stress so I 'rage quitted'. He later apologized and explained what happened (a month later..) but I forgive him because I love him and will be a good friend. Our relationship isn't the same but I'm gonna start talking to him more and it'll be pretty much back to the way it was before. (Hopefully)
Rosa had a bit of a scare with her leg and I got really freaked and had nightmares and mental breakdowns over the paranoia and fear. BUT she's fine thankfully it's just healing and a bit of degeneration in her meniscus (that's kinda bad but better than what it COULD have been).
I tried dating people after Picard  but it failed as with the first guy (let's call him Luna Lover) Luna Lover I didn't feel right being with him and I realized I needed more time to heal. He didn't take that well and freaked out. It was bad but it's all good between him and I. Then I got into a relationship with Train and it didn't last long either because I also felt weird with that relationship. So now I'm single and just not worrying about relationships and stuff. It's too stressful at times and I don't need anymore of that right now.

So exciting news is; WE WON OUR ROBOTICS COMPETITION (my team) AND IT WAS SO MUCH FUN. I made friends and hung around Rosa and her boyfriend Kawaii-mon (He's on our robotics team and he loves the Pokemon Latios and Latias, he's also unbelievably cute /)>3<(\ his social awkwardness is so adorable.) I also got a guy's phone number and I feel bad because I lost my phone Sunday so I can't really talk to him. Hopefully he'll forgive me..'0.0....I met other guys on different teams and maybe I suck at being able to tell people's attraction because I felt it from some that I talked to..Oh well I'm oblivious and shit. Funny shenanigans happened during the whole thing, like our mascot dancing and my childhood friend (He shall be named Secret Curly because he has wild hair like his mom but I didn't know that till recently because he always kept it short) Secret Curly had his hat sent down to our human player to be worn so a certain someone on our team would see it, get pissed, and can't do shit about it. Muhahaha.
Rosa ships me with Secret Curly because we're childhood friends and I still have a crush on him even though it's not a big deal and nothing is going to come out of it. Secret Curly supposedly (from the source of my little brother) had feelings for me too, but I doubt it's not so anymore. ANWAY~
I will be celebrating my eighteenth birthday in six months so my Mom and I are hoping to rent a beach house and invite all my close friends to stay with me there for two days (my birthday is on a Monday so it's best to do it the weekend beforehand). If it works out then it's gonna be wicked awesome! I'm so excited I'm thinking of making lists of everything but I need to be doing my homework... I'm also hoping to convince my dad to bring along Shelb's so I can see her and have my friends finally meet a very important part of my family. As we've had her longer than I've been alive without her..she's getting old so I want to see her more and create more memories with her. I can't imagine my life without my first pet..and really she isn't one. She's my family, my sister, my bestfriend..Agh. Emotions.

Yeah so I'm sorry that I've been gone and quiet for so long.
Love yall!
Peace~

THIS SCHOOL SUCKS

DRUGGIES, DRUGGIES EVERYWHERE!

I'M FREAKING SERIOUS WHEN I SAY THIS I CAN COUNT ABOUT HOW MANY PEOPLE I KNOW WHO DON'T DO DRUGS ON TWO HANDS! TWO AND NOT EVEN USE ALL OF MY FINGERS!! WHAT THE FUCK OF FUCKS. LIKE THIS IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM WHAT IN THE WORLD DID I SIGN UP FOR????!! AND WHY THE HELL ARE REASONABLE PEOPLE STILL AT THIS SCHOOL!!!? THE ONLY THING GOOD ABOUT THAT SCHOOL WAS ART CLASS AND WHEN I SAY THAT I MEAN IT. ONLY. ART CLASS. I ALSO FELT I LEARNT NOTHING

WHILE THERE. I'M POSITIVE I HAVE LEARNT NOTHING. I BARELY HAD HOMEWORK AND STRANGELY ENOUGH I HATED THAT. HOW COULD I HATE HAVING LESS HOMEWORK?? DON'T KNOW WHY THE HELL I DO FEEL THAT WAY. I DON'T KNOW MAN. I JUST DON'T KNOW.
 WANNA KNOW WHAT OTHER SHIT WAS GOING ON AT THAT PLACE?! THEY LOCKED THE BATHROOMS AND WOULD'T ALLOW PEOPLE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM DURING CLASS. THANKS GUYS, I GUESS I'LL JUST PISS MY PANTS.
THIS IS TOTALLY LEGAL..

     THE PRINCIPAL AT THIS SCHOOL WAS A HIGH CLASS CUNT. CONTROLLING, MANIPULATIVE, RUDE, SELFISH, DODGY, ETC. WHEN I WAS DISCUSSING THAT KIDS IN SCHOOLS WERE ALLOWED TO VOICE THEIR OPINIONS SHE SAID " DON'T SHOW YOUR IGNORANCE." EXCUSE ME?! IGNORANCE?! I AM NOT IGNORANT, ESPECIALLY FOR VOICING MY OPINION. I MEAN REALLY?! YOU'RE GOING TO TALK DOWN TO ME BECAUSE I'M A STUDENT? SCREW YOU, YOU JERK. HOW ELSE IS SHE A JERK?! SHE BULLIES THE TEACHERS. LITERALLY SOME TEACHERS ONLY STAYED FOR ONE YEAR. ONE. OR A FEW WEEKS.

ANOTHER HORRIBLE THING WAS IF SOMETHING WAS ONLY DONE ONCE, ( THAT WAS A MISTAKE) THE PRIVILEGE WOULD BE INSTANTLY TAKEN AWAY. STORY TIME: A KID IN MY ART CLASS AND HIS GIRLFRIEND (SHE BY THE WAY DID NOT LIKE ME FOR WHATEVER DELUDED REASON SHE HAD IN HER MIND) GOT IN TROUBLE FOR PDA IN THE LUNCH ROOM AND MADE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. SHE WENT HOME AND HE LEFT DURING OUR FIELD TRIP. IN DOING SO WE AREN'T ALLOWED TO HAVE FIELD TRIPS OR GO OUTSIDE FOR PHOTOGRAPHY ANYMORE.
DUDE. SERIOUSLY? YOU RUINED IT FOR EVERYONE BECAUSE YOU DECIDED TO HAVE A TEMPER TANTRUM?!

THANK GOD I AM OUT OF THAT HELL HOLE THEY CALL A SCHOOL. THOUGH NOW I'M AT LAKE WITH LOTS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE VERY JUDGMENTAL. BUT LET'S HAVE CAKE TO CELEBRATE THAT I AM FREE.

GAHHHHHH.
HOPE I SURVIVE.
LOVE Y'ALL,
Alex

I'm tired.

Tired of a lot a shit that happens to me. Tired of getting yelled at. Tired of going to that stupid school ( oh right I need to write about that fairly soon.) Tired about not being good enough. Tired of my mom reminding me I have acne on my face. Tired of her reminding me I'm pudgy. Tired of being alone. Tired of not seeing my brother for weeks at a time. Tired about having nightmares about my past. Tired about getting emotional. Tired of arguing. Tired of everything. I'm tired of having random feelings of wanting to commit suicide (thankfully very rare.). I don't know what to do sometimes...but I want to stop feeling this way. I want to stop feeling tired.