I'm tired.

Tired of a lot a shit that happens to me. Tired of getting yelled at. Tired of going to that stupid school ( oh right I need to write about that fairly soon.) Tired about not being good enough. Tired of my mom reminding me I have acne on my face. Tired of her reminding me I'm pudgy. Tired of being alone. Tired of not seeing my brother for weeks at a time. Tired about having nightmares about my past. Tired about getting emotional. Tired of arguing. Tired of everything. I'm tired of having random feelings of wanting to commit suicide (thankfully very rare.). I don't know what to do sometimes...but I want to stop feeling this way. I want to stop feeling tired.