THIS SCHOOL SUCKS

DRUGGIES, DRUGGIES EVERYWHERE!

I'M FREAKING SERIOUS WHEN I SAY THIS I CAN COUNT ABOUT HOW MANY PEOPLE I KNOW WHO DON'T DO DRUGS ON TWO HANDS! TWO AND NOT EVEN USE ALL OF MY FINGERS!! WHAT THE FUCK OF FUCKS. LIKE THIS IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM WHAT IN THE WORLD DID I SIGN UP FOR????!! AND WHY THE HELL ARE REASONABLE PEOPLE STILL AT THIS SCHOOL!!!? THE ONLY THING GOOD ABOUT THAT SCHOOL WAS ART CLASS AND WHEN I SAY THAT I MEAN IT. ONLY. ART CLASS. I ALSO FELT I LEARNT NOTHING

WHILE THERE. I'M POSITIVE I HAVE LEARNT NOTHING. I BARELY HAD HOMEWORK AND STRANGELY ENOUGH I HATED THAT. HOW COULD I HATE HAVING LESS HOMEWORK?? DON'T KNOW WHY THE HELL I DO FEEL THAT WAY. I DON'T KNOW MAN. I JUST DON'T KNOW.
 WANNA KNOW WHAT OTHER SHIT WAS GOING ON AT THAT PLACE?! THEY LOCKED THE BATHROOMS AND WOULD'T ALLOW PEOPLE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM DURING CLASS. THANKS GUYS, I GUESS I'LL JUST PISS MY PANTS.
THIS IS TOTALLY LEGAL..

     THE PRINCIPAL AT THIS SCHOOL WAS A HIGH CLASS CUNT. CONTROLLING, MANIPULATIVE, RUDE, SELFISH, DODGY, ETC. WHEN I WAS DISCUSSING THAT KIDS IN SCHOOLS WERE ALLOWED TO VOICE THEIR OPINIONS SHE SAID " DON'T SHOW YOUR IGNORANCE." EXCUSE ME?! IGNORANCE?! I AM NOT IGNORANT, ESPECIALLY FOR VOICING MY OPINION. I MEAN REALLY?! YOU'RE GOING TO TALK DOWN TO ME BECAUSE I'M A STUDENT? SCREW YOU, YOU JERK. HOW ELSE IS SHE A JERK?! SHE BULLIES THE TEACHERS. LITERALLY SOME TEACHERS ONLY STAYED FOR ONE YEAR. ONE. OR A FEW WEEKS.

ANOTHER HORRIBLE THING WAS IF SOMETHING WAS ONLY DONE ONCE, ( THAT WAS A MISTAKE) THE PRIVILEGE WOULD BE INSTANTLY TAKEN AWAY. STORY TIME: A KID IN MY ART CLASS AND HIS GIRLFRIEND (SHE BY THE WAY DID NOT LIKE ME FOR WHATEVER DELUDED REASON SHE HAD IN HER MIND) GOT IN TROUBLE FOR PDA IN THE LUNCH ROOM AND MADE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. SHE WENT HOME AND HE LEFT DURING OUR FIELD TRIP. IN DOING SO WE AREN'T ALLOWED TO HAVE FIELD TRIPS OR GO OUTSIDE FOR PHOTOGRAPHY ANYMORE.
DUDE. SERIOUSLY? YOU RUINED IT FOR EVERYONE BECAUSE YOU DECIDED TO HAVE A TEMPER TANTRUM?!

THANK GOD I AM OUT OF THAT HELL HOLE THEY CALL A SCHOOL. THOUGH NOW I'M AT LAKE WITH LOTS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE VERY JUDGMENTAL. BUT LET'S HAVE CAKE TO CELEBRATE THAT I AM FREE.

GAHHHHHH.
HOPE I SURVIVE.
LOVE Y'ALL,
Alex

I'm tired.

Tired of a lot a shit that happens to me. Tired of getting yelled at. Tired of going to that stupid school ( oh right I need to write about that fairly soon.) Tired about not being good enough. Tired of my mom reminding me I have acne on my face. Tired of her reminding me I'm pudgy. Tired of being alone. Tired of not seeing my brother for weeks at a time. Tired about having nightmares about my past. Tired about getting emotional. Tired of arguing. Tired of everything. I'm tired of having random feelings of wanting to commit suicide (thankfully very rare.). I don't know what to do sometimes...but I want to stop feeling this way. I want to stop feeling tired.

OK I HAVE A COMPUTER NOW

OK I HAVE A COMPUTER NOW SO I CAN'T GO BE A DUMBASS AND SAY I CAN'T POST. NOPE NOPE NOPE. 

So I've been sick about a week before Halloween because fucking ragweed suck likes a mothefucker and wants to kill me. Update on everything: I'm at a new school and it sucks like hell. I'll have to make a new post just for the damn school. 

I had a boyfriend for a month (my ex who is an amazing wonderful person. His name on here shall be DH) but it ONCE AGAIN didn't feel right. Being single right now is a good situation for me. I don't know maybe something is horridly wrong with me, I doubt I'm a-sexual though or that I'm full on lesbian. I don't know maybe my attraction and such isn't strong enough for him. God knows why not since he's amazing and is a great boyfriend. I guess I just like to fall in love with people who will never love me back and that's why I can't be with DH because he loves me. Dammit DH don't love me so I can fall in love with you and then you can love me again so we can be happy...I guess there is nothing I can do as of now and just hope my stupid shining armor will fall out of a freaking tree and apologize for being late...while I hit him repeatedly with the hilt of the swords telling him he better work on his crap. Then mutter about how I searched for the idiot myself but I didn't happen upon him until I stopped looking and slaying dragons (he sucks at his job. Maybe I'm the knight...? Probably.) 

Moving on, I should be doing my homework but blogging sounds more appealing right now. I don't know what else to say so maybe I should start ranting about people? Eh it's a blog and if they read it then good. 

To Rosa: You're beautiful you silly little girl. Zinc needs to work on his crap. The End.

To Sexy: Get your head out of your ass!  You  said little to nothing to me at Halloween and that pissed me off. Candy isn't that fucking important you can always buy some. Fucking pick up the slack talk to me sometimes, got it?!! Besides that your boyfriend may be fantastic and such,but I believe I knew you first so stop ignoring your friends and be there for them. They may be going through tough times so look around once in a while. Crying alone isn't ok and no person should stop you from being there for your friends. Dumbass. 

To Picard: Here we goooooo...Yeah I don't like that you kiss and love on me whenever you wish to. It confuses me and makes my heart ache. You've said you don't have feelings for me like that but kissing me isn't helping with that statement. Find a girlfriend or something or figure out stuff. I don't know. Mer.

To Zinc: Yeah I don't like how you deal with things that Rosa does that upsets you. Fix that pronto buddy boy it's nearing the edge of control. Rosa is a beautiful creature that you can't control. Ok?

To X-boy (can't remember if that is you name on here but I'm not going back to check): Get on facebook more. 

To Me: Stop staying up late, procrastinating, and putting personal stuff on your blog. But I doubt you'll listen to me. Oh yeah...and work on your grammar on here (ha nope.)

Ok bye guys! 

Peace out!

Alex

MOST OF MY POSTS ARE GONE WHAT!!

Oh my gosh,
Most of my old posts in 2012 are gone! And the ones earlier this year! What happened O.O I don't know...I never noticed before until I looked at all my posts and have only seen my three....I have no idea what happened...even my drafts are gone.

WHAT IS THIS I DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW!!!

Hey! What's up guyzzz!!!

God...did I just type that? *sigh* Sorry I've pretty much only drank coffee all day so right now I'm really hyped up and loony..more then usual. And this fucking computer keyboard is annoying the shit out of me so I'm looking at my hands so I won't make any mistakes. FUCK YOU COMPUTER NO ONE LIKES YOU!!! Anyway, I'm in the mood to blog and I'm just gonna jump around when I talk about stuff. I apologize before hand...then again this may turn out hilarious!! I've just realized that out of most words I suck at spelling hilarious...don't know why but I seem to forget how to spell it every damn time. Oh well! I'm not perfect ok? I'm not Rosa, Sexy, or Dragon. Yeesh! Ok so this summer has been interesting, I've met interesting people and I've interesting stuff...I guess. XP
One thing is I met a girl that I shall now nickname Superman, she is a girl but her favorite superhero is  Superman. So stop judging and keep reading! Ok back to what I was saying, Superman is coolio and the most out there bi (besides Sexy) that I've met! I'm thinking I've got a crush on her X3 hehehhehhehhehehe~.
Ahem, so she looked awesome last Thursday and was wearing a tie so I made a joke that there a lot of good things that you can do with a person wearing a tie i.e slap them with the tie, pull them around with a tie, and pull them close to you. ;3 So that was fun! Teasing people is generally fun. I've met a acquaintance of mine that Sexy knows as a good friend. I shall name thee AKGOD! Abbreviation for~   Awesome killer guy of doom! I'd call him something else that Sexy generally calls him but I wanna be a bit original. Ha! Just realized that spells out "AK God!" Wow, I didn't even do that on purpose...fuck yeah! I've met a-couple more cool people but I'm not in the right mind set to nick name them and talk about them all...
Moving on, I went and saw WWZ with Omario! Not a bad movie but through out the whole movie I was not trying to laugh! That awesome fuckwad could make me laugh during a horror zombie movie! XD (Note: Some spoilers.) We made jokes about the main guy's wife because when he was on a walkie talkie typing in home, it had an o at the end so it spelled 'homo' so we joked she was homo. And from now on she'll be referred to as 'Homo'. Haha after the movie we were walking toward the main doors when I took out my phone, Omario looked down, widened his eyes and screamed "OH SHIT!!!" And fucking sprinted back to the theater. I almost fell down from laughing so hard..yup I'm mean.
OK PICTURE TIME BECAUSE I'M TOO RANDOM TO JUST TYPE!!!! (Note: I blurred out stuff for privacy reasons. Rosa is the one blurred out and so is my friend Xboy. Oh yeah, and the top was because it wouldn't really matter there. ;3 )

       Hehe, Rosa was eating a hot dog and I couldn't miss out on the opportunity. I regret nothing.

    I drew this because Rosa gave me a little cat character and I had to prove I'd draw him. His name is Felis. Felis da Kittah. 

Chocolate milk yo. 

                         I was explaining how the universe came to be. I'm great at explaining things.

                                           Big chair to rule the world and I was dead serious on him dying. 

Boobs. Apparently I have them. I don't know...America. 

Yup random time yo. I don't know what I'm doing with my life but I personally think it's not turning out too bad. Yeah motherfuckers. I'm happy with my life at the moment. Though right now summer is passing by pretty quickly and I wish it wouldn't...Fuck Ever After is an awesome movie but fucking Margaret or how you spell her cunt name and the step mother are whores.....the only cool person is Jacklyn. My favorite part is when cunt gets punched in the face. I'm not much into love stories but I adore this one. Only one besides The Princess Bride that I'll make my better half watch in the future. 

Ha, gotta go. 

Peace out! 

Alex  

Tom Bombadil and stuff.

Hey guys! How's everyone's summer? X3
Well mine hasn't been that bad and I am happy. One, I got to go see World War Z with my friend Pie (it's a friend that I've known since fourth, he's halrious. He made me laugh during a zombie movie!) Two, I got my own copy of LOTR. And three, I may get a middle earth dress one day. I mean I've wanted one for a while now, since I saw it on pintrist months ago, but Sexy reminded me so I suggested it. Yup, I may never get one, but that's ok, because when ever I get a job I'll just save up and buy it myself. And I now want to go draw Tom Bombadil....I love him he's just amazing. ALSO OH MY GOD HIS NAME IS IN MY DICTIONARY. (Oh by the way Tom Bombadil is a character from Lord of the Rings YET THEY DIDN'T HAVE HIM IN THE MOVIE WHAT THE FUCK HE IS A BAMF) Alrighty song time!
"Hey! Come merry dol! derry dol! My darling!
Light goes the weather-wind and the feathered starling.
Down along under the Hill, shining in the sunlight,
Waiting on the doorstep for the cold starlight,
There my pretty lady is, River-woman's daughter,
Slender as the willow-wand, clearer than the water.
Old Tom Bombadil water-lilies bringing
Comes hopping home again. Can you hear him singing?
Hey! Come merry dol! derry dol! and merry-o,
Goldberry, Goldberry, merry yellow berry-o!
Poor old Willow-man, you tuck your roots away!
Tom's in a hurry now. Evening will follow day.
Tom's going home again water-lilies bringing.
Hey! Come derry dol! Can you hear me singing?"

I personally love him because he's pretty much the caretaker and spirit of the forest. I mean you'd have to read the book to see what I mean. But to say point blank he's the best. Yeah and I've been having fun re-reading Lord of the Rings. I have been reading other books this summer and I'm glad because I miss just doing that and relaxing. I have seen only a couple of friends but that is ok, everyone is busy. I have no idea what I'm doing for the fourth though...god it's going to be interesting. I just know it. Well I'd go on with stuff but I'm a bit tired so I'm gonna go sleep for a bit. Talk to you later my lovelies.
Peace out,
Alex

My friends should not allowed to have caffine,sugar, or access to the internet.

ROSA PRETTY MUCH IS A BOMB WHEN SHE HAS SUGAR! SHE GOES BONKERS AND BLOGS LIKE SHE IS FUCKING JOHNNY FROM THE SHINING WHEN HE'S BECOMING MENTALLY UNSTABLE." HERE'S JOHNY!!!!"
I CAN'T EVEN STOP HER FROM EATING SUGAR GOD DAMMIT. PLUS HER AND DRAGON ARE WRITING SCARY SHIT, WELL MOSTLY ROSA, DRAGON IS WRITING PORNOOO! (Dragon is my awesome asian friend by the way, I thought the nickname I gave her seemed fitting) BUT SERIOUSLY HOLY SHIT. THEN AGAIN I AM BECOMING MORE MORBID. STEPHEN KING YOU ARE NOT HELPING. I WROTE A STORY ABOUT A MAN WHO KILLED HIS WIFE AND HAD HER HEAD ON HIS DRESSER. AND BODIES OF SKIN. FUCK WHAT THE HELL. WHAT EVEN. ALSO I WROTE A BEAUTIFUL POEM THING BECAUSE YEAH. I DON'T EVEN:
"Alexandra lee Steve's 
That's me
The girl who is no one else
The girl who, when little was full of smiles and scraped up bruised knees
The girl who, danced in the rain 
The girl who, cried walking home
The girl who, pretended to be Ariel and tried drowning her little brother in a carpet river
The girl who, had long hair to her waist 
The girl who, loves her dog almost to death
The girl who, hated taking pictures when she was little 
The girl who, loved to fly kites
The girl who, loved dolphins and tigers and wolves 
The girl who, day dreamed twenty four seven 
The girl who, shoved chocolate cake in her face when she was a kid
The girl who, cried alone in her room 
The girl who, picked dandelions when she was supposed to be inside
The girl who, suffered the pain of asthma 
The girl who, used to get car sick 
The girl who, draws manga and anime and sometimes realistic
The girl who, can kinda sing 
The girl who, can't dance for crap 
The girl who, loves to act 
The girl who, loves the water 
The girl who, laughs out loud when reading
The girl who, would rather do anything but homework
The girl who, is confused with her future
The girl who, is afraid of losing her father 
The girl who, cried when she thought her parents were divorcing
The girl who, has a ton of stuff animals on her bed
The girl who, keeps picture taped to the wall
The girl who, wishes she had a room with lanterns strewn around
The girl who, maybe smiles more then cries
The girl who, pretends to be happy when inside she may be hurting
The girl who, can't admit she needs help
The girl who, has a short temper 
The girl who, falls in love too easy
The girl who, loves soda floats
The girl who, loves chocolate above anything else
The girl who('s), favorite movie is about dinosaurs 
The girl who, loves beef stroganoff 
The girl who, loves to cook
The girl who, wants to stay up and watch b horror movies around midnight with some one she loves. 
The girl who, loves video games
The girl who, loves MLP
The girl who, loves Doctor Who 
The girl who, loves Sponge Bob
The girl who, loves Scooby Doo
The girl who, loves Star Wars
The girl who, loves LOTR
The girl who, loves Star Trek
The girl who, loves Monty Python 
The girl who, is a fan girl
The girl who, likes the guy who won't ever like her back
The girl who, doesn't think she's pretty
The girl who, loves rock and roll
The girl who, loves to stare at the clouds
The girl who, loves to eat ice cream 
The girl who, laughed so hard she cried
The girl who, apparently has boobs
The girl who, has smoke filled memories 
The girl who, hates the color pink 
The girl who, could spit water through her teeth
The girl who, could make dolphin noises 
The girl who, is a little insane
The girl who, would love to sit in pajamas all day and watch cartoons
The girl who, can't do math to save her life
The girl who, loves to read 
The girl who, wished she had a tree house
The girl who, wishes things would stay the same
The girl who, loves to camp
The girl who, loves to blow bubbles 
The girl who, doesn't want to grow up The girl who, was in the chess club
The girl who, can punch
The girl who, hates a lot of pop music
The girl who, hates cough syrup 
The girl who, hates alcohol
The girl who, doesn't know is she believes in God
The girl who, has very strong opinions 
The girl who, tries to remain strong
The girl who, loves to read fanfiction (fuck she doesn't care) 
The girl who, hates tomatos 
The girl who, wants a water-balloon gun 
The girl who, who has dreamt a million dreams 

The girl who, doesn't really like romance novels or movies
The girl who, loves comedy movies
The girl who, calls her dad when she is crying and confused
The girl who, felt so alone
The girl who, carries many memories
The girl who, can rarely forget
The girl who, is really good at memorizing things like numbers 
The girl who, can kinda tan 
The girl who, has unruly hair 
The girl who, loves rainbows 
The girl who, is many things 
The girl who,
Is me. 
And I'm no one else. I'll never be." 

I was thinking about people comparing me to other people and I really hate that. I am my own person, and I know for a fact that I am like no one else. I am myself and that is that! is that. 

Also I'm writing this on a computer :D. Yay Yay Yay. 

FUCK I HATE THIS WHOLE WEEK THOUGH, I MISSED MY BROTHER'S GRADUATION. I WAS 'SISTER' ZONED AND FUCKING EVERYTHING. FUCK WHY. JUST WHY. I STARTED CRYING AND CALLED MY DADDY. JUST DAMMIT. UGH. I DON'T WANT TO EVEN TRY ANYMORE HONESTLY. JUST....SIGH. I'M GLAD TO BE IN SAN ANTONIO I NEED A BREAK. AND I'M FREE FROM EVERYTHING. DAMN CAN'T I JUST BE HAPPY THIS SUMMER?! WELL I'M HAPPY NOW, WITH MY PUPPY AND CAT. 

AREN'T THEY CUTE :D. ANYWAY. I ALSO HUNG OUT WITH ROZZY POZ LAST WEEKEND AND WE WENT TO STEAK AND SHAKE AND HAD A WATER HOSE FIGHT. YEAH. SO COOL. 

ANYWAYS I'M GONNA GO BE AN ALEX. PEACE.

- Alex